So Leggs, now 7, in the 1st grade, is being homeschooled. After much debate, teachers meetings and various other things, emails, failed attempts to set up meetings with the principal, Babe and I decided that if he was going to thrive in school he was going to have to come out of public school a while and have some one on one time and learn more and faster. It's much easier when it's one on one vs 1 on 15. Our issue, we changed their school last year and their new school (actually in our district) is a lot farther academically than the old one, they are 12 miles apart, we had NO idea. So he started behind and the transfer just made it even harder. He's dealing well. He likes it, but he also didn't have extra curricular activity anything because he had surgery again this year and we didn't know what the recovery time was going to be. So while 1 is in band, 2 play basketball - he didn't have any team or anything. But, we are hoping this year was his last surgery and that next year will start a whole new level of schooling for him!!!!
So right now I'm wrapped up with band, basketball, homeschooling and working from home.
There are so many things that have come and gone since the last time I blogged. I seriously had forgot all about this place. I get so tied up with day to day things, ME - well the things that bring me joy sometimes get thrown out the window, run over by a semi and then get sent back to ME. So I am saying good bye to previous years, and hello the 2015 and going to hold on tight to it and hang on for the ride, cus if you follow my Facebook page, you know even that gets left behind sometimes and that my life is one hell of a roller coaster ride, depending on the day! I've worked, and stopped working out side the home - I've had 2 children move out, and 1 move back in. My brother and I are on civil ground, we still have hell when it comes to dealing with the children though. My amazing husband is now working 3 jobs, my parents are living with us. My Mom had some major illnesses strike her and caused her to have a stroke and she now has vascular dementia and can't be left at home alone. She came to live with us and then shortly after - so did my Dad. My house is full - and I never thought Id say that considering how large it is, and we are even adding on another room and laundry room - and it seems the laundry room will now host as another bedroom as well! Fun times right? Right! I am going to just see where it all goes and live it all up in 2015.
I am in sync with the fact that my life will always be hectic and that my family strives on random drama's that come into play. So here we are. There are currently 10 of us living in a 4 bedroom - soon (prayers!) 5.5 bedroom house. Yes I am serious about putting "The Oldest" in the laundry room so that he isn't sleeping on the couch! - I hate having people sleep on the couch! My brother was staying here for a while, but that didn't work out - so he went back to Dallas to live this girlfriend and I hope that works out for him this time - they seem to have some crazy connection - I hope they keep it! Drama Rama dropped out of school and is living with some boyfriend about 30 miles from here - she ran away in 2014 and went to live with MULTIPLE people but ended up back with my brother who kicked her out - and now she's working on getting her camper live-in-able - she will be 18 in May and there is nothing I can do because when she ran away she took all legal documents out of the safe so I have no proof that I ever had any custody of her what so ever, because I never thought it would be necessary to file them with the county clerks office. Peacekeeper is playing the trumpet in the 6th grade middle school band, and is AMAZING at it. Darling Diva and Wild Thing start playing basketball this month. We bought them a basketball goal for Christmas and they have been practicing everyday that the weather would allow - which up until a few days ago was possible - not sending my kids out when the windchill is in the negative numbers and we live in Texas, home of the notorious bi-polar Mother Nature. 2015 for me is going to be wrapped with more time!
We are going to figure out a way to make all this work - I thought we'd have it down by now - hell maybe it wont ever happen, and this will be a yearly thing of me trying to figure it out. But we've made a pretty good start on it so far - basketball goal, pingpong table, fire pit in the back yard, the kids and I even started going to church on Sunday and Mom and I are going on a Walk to Emmaus next week!! I am super stoked!
So, I am - so what? I'm proud of who I am! I've been called a freak most of my life, for one reason or another. I have psoriasis and that's usually the first thing people notice about me ,the next thing they notice is the shit ton of tattoo's that I have, and then they notice my children :) So sometimes my psoriasis covers 80% of my body and there isn't really a damn thing I can do about it. I won't "flake" on you - it's not going to jump off me and consume your precious baby, I'm a stressful anxious person - mine just shows on my skin while you hide you shit stuffed down deep inside - good for you, I don't have that option!
Yes, I decorated my body with pretty designs, colors, and random things. Yes, at one time they all meant something, and most of them still do. Some are matching friend tattoo's, my kids names, yes I have my ex husbands name on my chest, yes I've been remarried for quite a few years, and no I'm probably not going to cover it up because he is still the father to 2 of my children and it would upset them if I covered it, and yes "Babe's" name is tattooed on me twice - no I don't care if you think that is odd and his couldn't be covered up if I wanted. Sorry I can't always remember what Kanji means what - I didn't get them yesterday - matter of fact it was many years ago - I know what they mean, just not always in what order. Yes they hurt, yes I am proud of them and NO, I wont hide them - not even for your wedding or funeral. Could I cover them all - sure, if I wore long sleeves, pants and left my hair down - will I, no!
Yes, these kids are mine - wait no, I stole them from the "children's section" in Wal-mart - they are having a buy one get one free sale on isle 213! Where the hell else do you think I got them? - I hate that damn question - "Wow, you have this many kids" "Oh my, are all these kids yours?" - The looks my kids give people who ask this are priceless - no bitch I stole 'em - want them? I'll sale them to you cheap, but you have to bring 'em back tomorrow, okay? You think you could handle 6 better than I can? Awesome - start popping them out! Lemme know how that works out for you okay? Yes, I had them young! Yes, I know what causes "that" - "that" is my child and if you refer to him/her as "that" again - I'm liable to eat your face off! You also know what that means - that means I like sex, and am apparently good at it - so BITE ME!
So maybe in a perfect world I wouldn't stick out like a sore thumb, but until then, I'll keep my freak show and make it look as classy - or sassy - as I want it to be. This is MY freak show - and if you don't want to be a part of it - well - go away :) It's not that hard!
Every time I hear the question (or even read it) "Who are you?" the the song "Who Are You" by The Who pops into my head and then the cat in Alice and Wonderland asking Alice "Whhhoooo Aaaaarrrrreeee yooooou?
If you don't follow me on facebook, you're coming into this totally empty! What if you don't like me? Or think my sense of humor is totally inappropriate, that I have no idea what I am doing or "what gives me the right to talk about this"? I'd be lost too!
So, who are we? (I'm not going to get all this right in 1 sitting, its 4am, cut me some slack here people :) but I'll do my best!)
ME - I'm the writer that's who I am :) I'm the SAHM of 6 kids that range from 16 to 4 and have shown me that life/situations/actions/reactions are always, ALWAYS, different and that each child/human being is different and has to be handled different both physically and emotionally.
I started getting my masters in Psychology, but dropped out because I couldn't handle kids/work/school/life all at one time! Will I go back? Who knows, but the honest answer is probably not! I'll use my kids as an excuse now, my husbands job later, and my grandchildren after that! So don't hold your breath waiting on that blog!
I didn't want a large family, don't come from a large family, hell I actually I didn't think I wanted a family at all!! Boy was I WRONG!
I have psoriasis, social anxiety, and bits and bouts of depression that sometimes I think are never going to pass!
I got married shortly after I turned 18, that didn't work - 'cus most young marriages don't - YAY STATISTICS (bastards) then remarried a few months after my divorce was final.
(I know, I know, I'm quick at this stuff, huh?)
But I have an amazing husband(most of the time!)
My Husband - aka "Babe" - he's my right hand, my rock, my asshole, my friend, sometimes my enemy, but most of all he's my partner - in everything I do! WE make this "HOUSE OF CHAOS" work. WE, not he, not I, WE. He works his ass off - 1 full time - M-F job - and 1 part time job - he builds airplanes - crop dusters and those emergency fire water dumping planes (I can't ever remember what the hell they are called!) He comes from a large family, was raised with heavy religion, and his family is very distant and doesn't come around/interact much.
*now the fun part -- KIDS*
"The Oldest" - is my brothers 16 year old son who just came into our life 1/2012 and moved in with "Babe" and I in July,2012. We are still getting to know him, but he loves athletics, basketball is his favorite. His past life has been crazy, broken and unstable and we are working on showing him what life is SUPPOSE to be like. He has amazing street smarts (which scares the shit out of me!) but has had to be a survivor his whole life and so he's tough and strong and going to go places in life!! "Drama Rama" - is my brothers 15 year old daughter who has lived with me off and on her entire life - mostly as a baby then again as a teenager (her step Mom got the easy years, damn it!) and moved in this time (permanently) July, 2012. She is the main drama factor around this house. Everything has to be about her or about nothing at all. She is always getting into sticky situations and never knows how to get out or rise above them. She is def. her own worst enemy. She's learning - she hasn't had a simple life either - but we are trying our best to help her be the best she can be, at whatever she wants to be! "Peace Keeper" - my 9 year old son from my 1st marriage. He is calm, cool and collective. Might have a slight touch of OCD, loves school, academics, and will do just about anything to keep the chaos to a minimum. And its scary how independent he is! And how flexible he is! "Wild Thing" - my 7 year old from my 1st marriage. He is wild and crazy. Off the walls, has amazingly crazy ideas and can't keep focused for more than a few minutes. He loves school, but just enough to get by and because his friends are there. He is mothers child. Solid boy through and through. Always in trouble always starting fights - but is the first to cry, apologize and need to be held, loved and cuddle with you! He is one of the most caring, sweet children I have ever seen. Loves animals, the outdoors, and a true spirited child. And he TOTALLY HATES CHANGE! "Darling Diva" - my 6 years old princess - She is - WOW, I'm not even sure how to describe her. She is so independent but so needy at the same time. She is always up my butt, wants to do everything I do. Likes to clean, and showers sometimes multiple times a day for no reason, loves to help me in anyway that she can but in the flick of a switch she is an evil spawn. She screams, yells and throws fits like I've never seen in my life. "Leggs" - my 4 year old bilateral clubbed foot baby boy. He is SOLID BOY and an exact mixture of his 2 half brothers. He can be as calm or as wild as the situation needs him to be! He has the most amazing loving personality I have ever seen in a child. He is a sponge and loves to absorb every bit of knowledge he can, anyway that he can. He might be the youngest and the smallest, but he can stand his own with the other kids. He's for sure the toughest of all 6.
*Ok, I'm done for now - I'll write more later! I'm fixing to face plant the keyboard* 9/05/2012 4:35am
I'm jumping into all this pretty blind. I write well, I'm good at it - at least I was in school and college. Back when "myspace" was cool I blogged all the time, and everyone always ranted and raved about them - I wrote about what life had thrown at me, how the kids were doing, how I wanted everyone to think life was going. Myspace fell apart and turned to TRASH, and Facebook became a hit - I hate it, now I love it. I live away have out grown most from of my "friends" and have a really close family that is always around getting into twisting and turning in each others business - and everyone else's in town too. (That happens a lot when you live in a town of less than 500!! A LOT LESS) So I felt like I had no out - I wrote a lot - well people find diaries and journals and then do what? Get mad! So I opened up a Facebook page last month that has virtually NO ONE I am related to have even ever laid REAL eyes on, and decided - damn it - I need to blog...to write...so here I am!
I have followed/liked a ton (and I mean a TON) of "MOM" places on Facebook - and have started feeling whole again - not so damn alone. It is freeing. I can be me - JUST ME - and not have to worry about what anyone else thinks or says or does - cus I can block you, delete your comments or just blow you off! I recently bought a plaque at a local pharmacy that says "www.MommyNeedsHerSpaceBeforeSheTotallyLosesIt.com" NOW I HAVE IT!! I have my place! To talk about life, love, kids, home, work, school, other parents, opinions, facts, jokes, husband, dogs, food, crafts, WTF ever I want :) And I like it! I hope you enjoy all these Crazy Ramblings Of A Not So Ordinary Mom. I'll work on doing an "about me" page at some point - a real personal type one - but for now -- this is what you get :)
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